Welcome Back...

Wow... It has been a while...
I just took the liberty of re-reading some of the things that I have previously posted... and I must say that though I would never like to be known as a horn tooter... lol I am rather proud of my work thus far... And rather disappointed in myself for stopping at all...
I love writing... It is my etermal release and always has beem... But I also fear in reading what I've produced thus far that I may not be able to keep up with such ...perfection... Everything that I have written so far has been so true to me... To my style of thinking... though I somehow found a way to focus it all because my mind is a bit random at times [[admittedly]]... So I will do my best not to disappoint myself but also not to disappoint anyone else choosing to read these...


Anyway.. I have a couple of ideas for my returning blog...
I think I'll lay them out here and then pick up with whichever of these options speaks most closely to my state of mind at the moment...

1.) I heard a Dr. King quote the other day on 106th and Park [[OF ALL SHOWS lol]] that really inspired me... I already can tell that this will be one of the concepts I am forced to revisit as I am gonna search high and low for this quote before expounding upon it forreal... [[sn:please excuse me as I bounce back and forth between appropriate use and inappropriate use of the English language with my verbage and other word choices... but then again this is my random mind so excuse YOU! lol should you so happen to be that offended lol]]
Anyway... the quote spoke something along the lines of not saying that he spoke well or that he something else [[my lack of perfect recollection is embarrassing]]... but let it be known instead that he fed the hungry and helped those incapable of helping themselves... I am almost positive that I butchered that... But you get the gist of it I hope... Anyway I LOVED THAT! lol We'll come back to that one...

2.)Another thing currently on my mind is a huge problem affecting so many young women today... and it transcends race, and age really, and all other things that women don't have in common... its something that unfortunately binds us together as women... and i HATE it! Lack of self worth... or at least lack of understanding of what we are worth... [[i think this may be a winner, but also may be something that I have to start a fresh blog for.... stay TUNED!]] :)

3.)Relationships... plutonic and otherwise... So many of mine have changed over the past year and I'm still working through how I feel about it... Interesting #neshfact: There are some things that i care somuch about [[most of them that I should not]]and then there are some things that just dont matter to me at all... and which side of the line a person, or situation, or item falls upon generally depends on so much that it becomes difficult to guess.. lol [[meh *shrug*]]

4.)This economy... I could go on for days and days and some more days about this mess... smh

5.)Romantic relationships: smh lol If you know me... it has been forever since I have been in one... almost 3 years to be exact... so the fact that I have recently awakened to one [[lol no seriously where did this come from]]... in addition to the fact that I feel like I need to have my own column or something with all the advice I give on a daily basis... I know this topic will come up more often than not... Let me put a pin here first and say that I honestly don't know whyit is so hard for people to get over themselves and care about someone else every once in a while ... Too many people are too darn selfish but still want all of the benefits a relationship offers.... It will NEVER work this way... I don't care who you are... and chances are that if you are operating and THINKING it is working, you're WRONG! ... Most relationship values come down to respect on a mutual plain... and most people skipped that lesson in kidnergarten... smh poor souls... lol I tweeted yesterday [[@MyGirlNesh lol #shamelessplug.com]] that teaching an adult the fundamentals of a relationship is far more difficult than teaching a baby how to walk.. and I stand by this... The main reason being that the baby may have fears and may fall.. but the baby is still learning and doesn't quite recognize fear the way that adults do... The adult on the other hand has already experienced and inherited so much from these experiences and will hold these against every new situation they encounter... either until the aforementioned is disproved...or until it is proven true and they choose to walk away adding this to the ever-building list... and even in the first case, often times that drives the other person away anyway... Seems like a lost cause... And though I do not believe in lost causes... smh I can understand this from both perspectives... We have to start treating one another better.. But we have to start treating ourselves better FIRST...

lol Okay I think I've done enough rambling for one sitting... This is just a little announcement, if you will, that I'm back... It will be shaky at first because even though once I start I get on a roll... allowing myself to be so transparent is always a task for me so we shall see how this goes... Stick with me :)

First official blog of 2011 coming later on today...
Think I'll title it after my FAVORITE poem... "Pheonomenal Woman" or maybe it will be called "A Woman, PHEONOMENALLY!" lol we'll see... lol tune in ...
I'll holla :)