Learning so much on the road to becoming me... Enjoying the journey

This is a brief invitation into the innerworkings of my brain... Some words are insights into my private thoughts and emotions while others are humorous and carefree... Everything here is my opinion and from my perspective and is in no way meant to offend, harm, or persecute. I merely needed an outlet for the tons of concepts flowing through my head daily. Feel free to comment, but please do so with respect for others as well as yourself.







Other than that... Happy reading :) -A.T.M.







Thursday, January 19, 2012

I'm behind... smh Day 2 of 31

Today I was supposed to pick a song that I don't like...
Well no... Let me back up a smidge... lol Friday I was supposed to pick a song I don't like... and here we are 6 days later and I haven't blogged once... And only ONE person reminded me too... Guess that's why we're besties! ;)
Anyho... I was all over the place trying to decide on a song because I usually don't listen to the radio or watch television (much) and therefore am usually only exposed to artists that I enjoy... And even moreso, songs that I genuinely don't like usually just fade to black for me...
THEN I remembered the hatred I had for 50-cent as a person after the release of his third CD because he went all phony-gangster starting beefs with the enemies of his enemies...and I just felt, in general, that he was not doing enough to build the morale of young Black men... If he had put an ounce of the energy that he placed into being unproductive, into enriching the lives of young men... well you get my drift...
But then I remembered that there's a song that I don't like because of how it makes me feel... so I scrapped that entire idea...
Trey Songz- Your Side of the Bed...
I in no way want this to be an emotional blog... Not today anyway...
But I'll say this... I've already experienced the loss of a significant other in my lifetime... And as imperfect as that relationship was (AND BOOOOY WAS IT IMPERFECT!!!!) ... I know what it feels like and have since had the fear that I'd end up feeling that again one day... In fact it is possibly my greatest fear to date... Even greater than failure for me...
And that song, further tainted by the military concept behind the music video (My Hubby is in the army)... is a manifestation of my hugest fear... And therefore I turn it or shun it everytime I hear it... So that's that...

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